I have a problem.
I weigh 118 pounds and I don't eat more than 700 calories a day, but I run or ride my elliptical for over an hour a day.
I freak out when I gain a pound. I'll go a whole day without eating to punish myself.
I have become angry, forgetful, irritable, depressed, hopeless, unhappy, and have turned into someone I'm not. I go through the motions of the day, numb, and just playing the part people want to see of me.
My hands shake, I get headaches and dizzy and I'm overall weak. I'm in a constant state of anxiousness and paranoia. My body has begun the first stage of shutting down because it's eating itself.
I suffer from anorexia. If I don't fix it, they tell me I could be dead in the next six months.
If my insurance approves it, I will be admitted into an outpatient facility called the Emily Program. There, I will get guidance and help to undo the damage.
Please pray for me.
Saturday, August 23, 2014
I think I have a problem. No, no. It's not my obsession with canning.
You would think that at first glance.
There's just so much canned food lying around.
And I have so much more I want to do.
I haven't even started on the fruits.
Where am I going to put it all???